So it is common knowledge that I have been without a love (and I mean 'Real' Love) for some time. Let's not dwell on exactly how long. The fact is that it has been way too long. And now that I am NOT out there looking, it seems to be finding me. Trouble is, I don't want to be found this time.
I want to enjoy my independence and the opportunities for playful adventures with whomever I choose--a flavor-of-the-month, so to speak. But all of a sudden I feel like the guy in these potential conquests! Talk about roll reversal!
A few months ago, I began seeing a FB friend that I hadn't seen in 20 years. He barely remembered me which led me to believe he'd be the perfect "john" to hook up with for a mini fling to help me get mind off my last guy... err, relationship... err, whatever you call it... He was funny, had a job, lived far enough away, wasn't married, engaged, or living with anyone and he liked to drink and have a good time. Spent a whirlwind weekend at his place and BAM! He starts to have 'feelings' for me. Now I don't mind feelings--don't get me wrong, but these feelings were way too serious for only one weekend into a relationship! So I broke his heart and told him he was barking up the wrong tree if he wanted commitment from me. Result? He went on a rather unhealthy, pouty drinking binge and lemme tell you, he is not a nice drunk! Now I know how guys feel when 'marriage' comes up in conversation on a date!!!
Attempt number 2 occurred a couple of weeks ago while out enjoying the weekend before I went back to work. Went to a local bar with my BFF and met up with a couple of guys we hadn't seen in nearly 20 years. Now the guy that hit on me was just as funny as when we used to hang out with him all those years ago. He had me and my girl in stitches all night, and the two of them even took us to have a bite to eat afterwards. We laughed all night. Boy did I need that too! My tummy and entire core was sore from all the laughing. He was really into me too--had me feelin' like a teenager and all. Now he is a few years older than me (which is normally off for me! I like my men younger than me...), so I figured he'd be perfect for a fling, cuz he went out a lot and he was really outgoing he won't expect a relationship. Low and behold, he's also a handyman! (which is something I REALLY need) So I invited him over the next day to assess my honey do list. He was really into me (even sober). He gave me a foot massage and brushed my hair, and with his kisses, he touched that one place on the back of my neck that sends my senses to neverland! You guessed it, I let him sample my 'goodies'. It was just once! I didn't even let him stay the night! And I got WAY more out of it than he did--trus me! But dambed if he didn't call later that night! I had work the next day, and he's talkin' about wanting another drink and how I taste like cotton candy and can he get some more. Then he leaves me a message the next day, singing Bruno Mars 'Just the Way You Are'! And if that's not enough, he texted me too--talkin' bout how lucky he is to have met me and lets take a walk on the beach... WTF??? 1 time? Really? So I had "the talk" with him as well. Don't want commitment. His response? "That's cool, I get you. I can accept that. I mean, I'd rather be with you, but its cool if you don't want anything serious. So just use me. Can I get a drink?" Now that's more like it. I can get some when I need it and no commitment. That's beautiful, right? Apparently NOT. Very next day, that guy's cousin comes over for dinner (he used to date my BFF and they hadn't seen each other in like 12 years). So his cousin is very upset with me (he has always looked out for me & my BFF) for allowing him in my house. Apparently, he used to have a drug problem and still may have one. And to boot, he once sold all of his parents' belongings while they were away on a vacation. Wow... Now his cousin hasn't talked to him in years, but he thinks I should be very careful and maybe even get a dog--a big one. DAMN! So naturally, I have been avoiding this guy like the plague! I was able to fend him off for a while due to a recent death in my family. But he promised to call me next week. He already knows my BFF is leaving back home to Philly too. Aye, Aye, Aye! What to do? Now I know what guys feel like when girls 'stalk' them!!!
Since the recent death in my family, my ex boyfriend (I can call him that cause we introduced one another as our boy/girlfriend) has contacted me asking if he can come out for a visit. He said he'd stay in my guest room if I wanted him to. I hope I don't end up regretting it, but I think I just might let him. At least I know what I'm dealing with when I'm with him. He's a great drunk. He's totally NOT the stalker type. And he makes me feel safe. As long as I stick to my "Year of Me" rules and don't expect anything more than some good, clean sex, I think that just might work...
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